Milestone: One Volume Complete
Mar. 11th, 2008 05:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosOn June 10, 2007 I started keeping a handwritten journal to record my practice and thoughts while pursuing this path. Recording Sunday's ritual took me through the last page of the notebook.
My spiritual life has always been of deep importance to me, but I have not been this consistent -- this persistent -- in a specific path of personal spiritual practice since my existential crisis wrenched me out of Christianity during my sophomore year of college.
I started the journal with these words:
On one hand, it seems strange to begin a journal of priestessing studies with doubts -- but then again, not. I have wrestled with doubt all my adult life, and it has been a characteristic of my life of faith since the Void. I have learned not to fear doubt, but to embrace its gifts.
I go on for several paragraphs reflecting on getting to know my teacher, on how I'd ended up where I was, and then write:
I don't know if this path is going to work for me. I don't know if it's real. But I am willing to walk it until it is proven false. Having faith never yet harmed me.
This work has been exceedingly rich, and has propelled me into a place of strength and groundedness unlike anything I've known post-Void. I could not have imagined where I am now, what I have done and experienced and achieved, last June in the midst of my overwhelming grief for LM.
So thank you to my teacher, to the gods and my allies, and to all my friends here for the encouragement, affirmation, wisdom, patience, and support as I've taken my first steps on this journey.
My spiritual life has always been of deep importance to me, but I have not been this consistent -- this persistent -- in a specific path of personal spiritual practice since my existential crisis wrenched me out of Christianity during my sophomore year of college.
I started the journal with these words:
On one hand, it seems strange to begin a journal of priestessing studies with doubts -- but then again, not. I have wrestled with doubt all my adult life, and it has been a characteristic of my life of faith since the Void. I have learned not to fear doubt, but to embrace its gifts.
I go on for several paragraphs reflecting on getting to know my teacher, on how I'd ended up where I was, and then write:
I don't know if this path is going to work for me. I don't know if it's real. But I am willing to walk it until it is proven false. Having faith never yet harmed me.
This work has been exceedingly rich, and has propelled me into a place of strength and groundedness unlike anything I've known post-Void. I could not have imagined where I am now, what I have done and experienced and achieved, last June in the midst of my overwhelming grief for LM.
So thank you to my teacher, to the gods and my allies, and to all my friends here for the encouragement, affirmation, wisdom, patience, and support as I've taken my first steps on this journey.
