Realization

[qos]

I don't know. . . Maybe I've thought of this before, but tonight it feels intense and new.

It's important to me to meet challenges and overcome them with optimism and determination. I've been laid off -- I can find a new job. My apartment is too expensive -- I can move.

Death doesn't work like that. All my optimism and determination isn't going to "fix" it. The hole in my life is not going to be filled.

I can heal. I've been healing. But that's not the same thing as overcoming circumstance, or turning lemons into lemonade, or getting through to a solution.

My courage gets me through from day to day, but the passing days won't bring him back to me.

The wound heals. The loss can never be reversed or overcome.



I can use my priestess skills to draw closer to him in his current state, but they will never bring him back.

Comments

[blessed-harlot.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[oakmouse]

Yes, exactly. *hugs*

This is one reason why the death of a loved one sometimes cracks the shell and opens one to the call of spirit.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Some days, when all my other responsibilities are pressing in, and my rational mind has its back up or my resistance is flexing its muscles, reaching for him is the only thing that keeps me on the path.

Not always, of course, and less and less often. . . but still. . .

[oakmouse]

That's normal. Unpleasant, but normal. Keep reaching for him. *hugs*

[ogam.livejournal.com]

Thank you for posting this. Double blessing: I got to read it at a very appropriate time.

[qos.livejournal.com]

I'm always glad when what I post is helpful to others. Thank you for letting me know.

[tamnonlinear.livejournal.com]

Life is made up of a series of impossible events.

*hug*

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[ladyofthemoor.livejournal.com]

Many coloured feathers in a whirlwind from here to you in this troubled time.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much.

[iswari.livejournal.com]

♥

[stucco33.livejournal.com]

*hug*