Sunday Afternoon

[qos]

Let's see. . . what's been happening lately. . . ??

I've cleaned off my desk in the yellow room -- the one I can't remember ever actually working at. I've been more and more aware that I really need that room as a sanctuary, where I can close the door and be silent to do deep writing, meditate, or etc. Now I need to figure out how to energize that space to make it come alive the way my living room does. It's always been a sinkhole energetically.

Speaking of energy, I'm also becoming more and more aware of my own energy, and being conscious of energy quality and flow, through my discussions with _storyteller_ and uncrowned_king, which in turn is building on ideas and concepts I've been picking up from queenofhalves over the years.

After several weeks of contemplation in the Black Box of my subconscious, I've decided that I'm not going to return to seminary in the fall. After all the angst about getting re-admitted, I realized that one thing has not changed since Spring a year ago: I still feel that what I need most to do right now is cultivate my own authority, speak my own truth and write my own words, not listen to or read the words of others. This doesn't mean I'm shutting myself off from the wisdom of others, just that I'm not going to dedicate huge amounts of time, energy and money into going to school. I could better use that time and energy in developing my own spiritual direction practice.

_storyteller_ is moving to an apartment within half a mile of my home at the end of September.

My sister southernselkie is getting married at the end of October, which is a cause for rejoicing. Taking advantage of the fact that the wedding will be held near one of my personal sacred places, I will be renting a beachfront cabin at my favorite vacation place with _storyteller_ for the night before and night of the wedding, which should make for a very special weekend.

I have not been able to maintain a habit of exercise, but keep dragging myself back at odd intervals. The whole spectrum of "Pentacles Issues" continues to elude me: fitness, eating, hearthcare. I think, however, that I'm getting a bit better at finances.

My day job continues pretty much as normal. I'm working as the project manager representing my division on an important enterprise-wide initiative, and have received a couple of kudos from the enterprise lead, which is nice. Hopefully this will lead to bigger and better things. Had an episode with Miss V last week that left me with a stomach ache, but a day or two later spoke with her on the same topic and found myself with a win-win solution.

The Daughter starts fifth grade in a week and a half. Zoinks!

All has been relatively quiet upstairs. It doesn't look like anyone will be moving out, but so long as my borders are respected, how they choose to resolve their issues is no concern of mine.

And that's all the news that's fit to share in a public post. ;-)

Comments

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the reminder to listen with intuition. I actually know that, but have a hard time remembering. It's a Queen of Swords blind spot, I'm afraid.

And thanks for the affirmation about my plans. Now I need to combine intention and will with courage and put myself out there. It's an ongoing struggle -- and as I type that, I realize that I need to change my mindset and language. I'm sabotaging myself with my perceptions. It's going to be a marvelous adventure, an exciting time of enjoying myself and sharing my gifts through my newly-found power.

[a-belletrist.livejournal.com]

I'm not terribly good at remembering to listen to intuition, I'll admit. It's something that I'm trying to get better at ... listening with heart and soul and not just head. A mix would be nice.

If it helps at all, remember that the Universe gave you this path to walk -- opened it right up for you, and whatever happens while you walk it will be blessed.