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Monday Morning Short
My alarm was set for 5am, but I woke up around 4:10am and could not get back to sleep.
I get to spend all day -- from 6:30am or so until after dinner -- at the 2006 Kick-Off at work.
My company usually does a pretty good job with these, but since I really don't give a damn, I'm not particularly looking forward to it.
I did watch the Superbowl yesterday (when the hometown team makes it for the first time, I find myself interested). The daughter and I went to my parents' house, which was fun. I really did enjoy the game, although I usually don't watch football at all. But the highlight for me was before the game when Harrison Ford was lead 'reader' of Dr. Seuss's Oh, The Places You'll Go!. He's getting a bit grizzled, but he was obviously have a lot of fun with it -- and he still has a marvelous twinkle in his eye.
Last night when I went to bed I found myself back in the circle of stones in the clearing in the wood where I sat myself down last winter to figure out what I was doing spiritually. One of my daimons was there to meet me, and we had an interesting talk about the way I've been denying my fears about moving forward with my spiritual direction practice, and that if I don't acknowledge and face my fears in my mind, and deal with them there, I can't move forward in the outer world because I'll continue to be paralyzed by pretending they don't exist. We did a couple of "what is it you're afraid of?" and Worst Case Scenario, and it was eye-opening. But there's no time to describe it in detail right now.
Now to hit the shower and then the highway. I get to go over the narrow bridge this morning, so it's going to take longer than usual to get where I'm going.
I get to spend all day -- from 6:30am or so until after dinner -- at the 2006 Kick-Off at work.
My company usually does a pretty good job with these, but since I really don't give a damn, I'm not particularly looking forward to it.
I did watch the Superbowl yesterday (when the hometown team makes it for the first time, I find myself interested). The daughter and I went to my parents' house, which was fun. I really did enjoy the game, although I usually don't watch football at all. But the highlight for me was before the game when Harrison Ford was lead 'reader' of Dr. Seuss's Oh, The Places You'll Go!. He's getting a bit grizzled, but he was obviously have a lot of fun with it -- and he still has a marvelous twinkle in his eye.
Last night when I went to bed I found myself back in the circle of stones in the clearing in the wood where I sat myself down last winter to figure out what I was doing spiritually. One of my daimons was there to meet me, and we had an interesting talk about the way I've been denying my fears about moving forward with my spiritual direction practice, and that if I don't acknowledge and face my fears in my mind, and deal with them there, I can't move forward in the outer world because I'll continue to be paralyzed by pretending they don't exist. We did a couple of "what is it you're afraid of?" and Worst Case Scenario, and it was eye-opening. But there's no time to describe it in detail right now.
Now to hit the shower and then the highway. I get to go over the narrow bridge this morning, so it's going to take longer than usual to get where I'm going.
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One of my favorite quotations is from Beloved Exile, by Parke Godwin, a novel of Guinevere after the fall of Camelot (sans convent). "I have never lived without fear, and so I have learned courage."
I'm sure I'll address my fears more as I go on. They are certainly something I need to face squarely right now where my professional/vocational path is concerned.
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