Two More Deaths

[qos]

I release my lifelong, desperate struggle to live an ordinary life.

I decline to ever again submit my dreams or my creativity to the censorship of convention.

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[qos.livejournal.com]

I've put a lot of energy into trying to fit in, to be "appropriate" in the way my mother would approve of. I don't always do that, and I don't always succeed when I try. (Goodness knows most people who know me don't consider me "normal" or "ordinary".) But I try too hard, too often, to figure out "the rules" and conform to them so I don't make waves or make people nervous or make myself less acceptable to polite society.

I don't intend to throw off all my clothes and start dancing in the streets while selling flowers. . . but I need to live more boldly from my own source, not worry so much about keeping within conventional boundaries.