What I Believe

[qos]

I believe that however deep my grief at his passing, when Lohain died to his body a year ago this morning, he passed into a life far richer than this one.

I believe that he escaped a prison and took up a kind of work he was Called to do but was seldom able to do here.

I believe he continues to exist as himself, continues to love me as I love him, and to grieve for our separation as I do.

And I believe that when my own time comes to pass through the veil, he will be waiting for me with an outstretched hand, and as soon as I am across he will kiss me again the way he did that very first time.

And after that, if the gods want us to part again before several centuries have passed, they're going to need to have a damn good reason.

Comments

[veronica-milvus.livejournal.com]

I've been reading all your posts from the last few days and the story is so sad. It seems that Lohain was taken away from you just as everything was becoming so special. You are brave to talk about it here, the way you are, I am sure it is the best thing to do. And this past year you have been very strong.

Wishing you much love and healing.
V

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

I've been grateful to have the loving -- and patient -- support of this community over the past year. Being able to write about it has given me an outlet for my pain rather than keeping it bottled up inside me or coming out only in tears.