First I'd ask myself if you are someone who is erotically turned on by power exchange. If you were -- and I am not presuming that -- I would suspect that you would be a switch.
I suspect that you could find release from the intense responsibilities of your life if you were able to utterly let go in the hands of someone you trusted, someone who both loved and truly respected you. Your spiritual ethic and vocation of service could also be a source of erotic satisfaction.
But I also suspect that your desire and ability to maintain order and exert authority and responsibility to take care of others could find an erotic outlet in taking control of your partner. You use your authority and power selflessly most of the time. You could get a real charge out of channeling it to serve your own pleasure, and/or to train or discipline your partner to achieve a higher level of performance, responsibility, or other desired achievement. Again, this assumes a consenting partner, and mutual love and respect.
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I suspect that you could find release from the intense responsibilities of your life if you were able to utterly let go in the hands of someone you trusted, someone who both loved and truly respected you. Your spiritual ethic and vocation of service could also be a source of erotic satisfaction.
But I also suspect that your desire and ability to maintain order and exert authority and responsibility to take care of others could find an erotic outlet in taking control of your partner. You use your authority and power selflessly most of the time. You could get a real charge out of channeling it to serve your own pleasure, and/or to train or discipline your partner to achieve a higher level of performance, responsibility, or other desired achievement. Again, this assumes a consenting partner, and mutual love and respect.