Is it Really Storytime?

[qos]

I've said, I've written, I've thought. . . that I am searching for stories, for new stories, for meaningful stories. . .

But maybe it's time now to release not just my old stories but stories themselves, and storytelling as a way of life.

Maybe it's time to stop telling stories to myself and start planning and doing instead: to plan and engage in adventure instead of just dreaming about adventures; to act and become my desired self instead of just writing about a person I am convinced could never exist in this world.

There's more risk, of course -- but I may have finally come to the place in my life where I am ready to believe that it's only in risk that we grow. That I can grow.

I want to be more than I am.
There is nothing stopping me but me.

Comments

[queenofhalves]

eheheh. maybe so.

unless you want to sit down and write a story that starts, "on the first day that qos opened her spiritual direction office to clients, she hung her most sacred symbols on the walls and sat down to update her website..."

[qos.livejournal.com]

I've actually tried that, but to me 'telling a story' about this feels like deliberate visualization rather than the free-flowing inspiration of Story.

Writing this now, I'm wondering about putting my this-world ideal self into a more adventuresome story, rather than building a heroine who exists only in fantasy. . .