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If I'm embracing my feral aspect, which is largely about a disregard for the restrictions of convention, why am I feeling guilty contemplating writing a fairly ferocious POTC:DMC scene in which Norrington takes his revenge on Jack, Will and Elizabeth?
Yes, such a story would have various characters doing things that would violate my ethics -- but that's one reason I write: to explore things that I have not done or would not do.
Who am I trying to please or impress by censoring myself from writing a story that never need be shown to anyone?
It's not like I don't already know I have a dark side, or haven't spent more than a few hours indulging it through role play and fiction writing.
Or. . . (it suddenly occurs to me) . . . is it that on some level I am so willing to believe in the spiritual reality of characters, that within my own spirit I feel like I would be violating them -- or at least their truth, their integrity as characters -- if I wrote such things?
Or is it that I both want to watch Norrington do certain wicked things and want to believe he would never do such things?
In any case, the only real solution is to write the damn story. If certain acts are truly beyond the pale for Norrington (and/or myself) then the process of writing will reveal it. Characters can be damnedly stubborn when you try to force them to do something that is against their nature. Either they simply refuse to be written, or the whole scene goes utterly flat, so obviously a lie that no pleasure can be taken from writing or reading it.
Yes, such a story would have various characters doing things that would violate my ethics -- but that's one reason I write: to explore things that I have not done or would not do.
Who am I trying to please or impress by censoring myself from writing a story that never need be shown to anyone?
It's not like I don't already know I have a dark side, or haven't spent more than a few hours indulging it through role play and fiction writing.
Or. . . (it suddenly occurs to me) . . . is it that on some level I am so willing to believe in the spiritual reality of characters, that within my own spirit I feel like I would be violating them -- or at least their truth, their integrity as characters -- if I wrote such things?
Or is it that I both want to watch Norrington do certain wicked things and want to believe he would never do such things?
In any case, the only real solution is to write the damn story. If certain acts are truly beyond the pale for Norrington (and/or myself) then the process of writing will reveal it. Characters can be damnedly stubborn when you try to force them to do something that is against their nature. Either they simply refuse to be written, or the whole scene goes utterly flat, so obviously a lie that no pleasure can be taken from writing or reading it.
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