The List

[qos]

I'm not sure what prompted this, but a few days ago I started making a mental list of the things I've wanted to do for a long time, but have not actually accomplished. These are the not-immediately-urgent things I've never found the time, energy, and/or confidence to actually make real.

And I need to do something about that.

In no particular order:

Learn to fence (that is: wield a foil, not erect barriers around property)
Learn to belly dance
(Obviously I should be spending more time with rocket_jockey and pathdancer!)
Direct a film (my own film, not someone else's documentary project)
Direct a production of Godspell with a woman cast as Jesus
Engage in sacred/ritual/magical sex
Learn to ballroom dance
Publish a book, whether it's a novel or a work of non-fiction
Drive from Seattle to Los Angeles by myself, taking a week or so to complete the trip
Create a gallery in my entryway to display the highlights of my movie stills collection


These are all things I would like to do -- but then there are the day-to-day and/or urgent need-to-do's to take care of, not just the mundane stuff (job, house care, child time), and the biggest of my not-yet-fulfilled desires: the need to get my spiritual direction practice actually underway.

There is so much I could do to enhance my life. And I spend so much time on trivia -- not even the important householder tasks.

I need more energy, and a higher-level view of my own life. I think I've gotten trench-vision. All I can see is what is directly in front of me -- and what seems to be pressing in on me from the sidees. And that's no way to run my life.

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Maybe later this spring. . . .

What are their rates like?