The List

[qos]

I'm not sure what prompted this, but a few days ago I started making a mental list of the things I've wanted to do for a long time, but have not actually accomplished. These are the not-immediately-urgent things I've never found the time, energy, and/or confidence to actually make real.

And I need to do something about that.

In no particular order:

Learn to fence (that is: wield a foil, not erect barriers around property)
Learn to belly dance
(Obviously I should be spending more time with rocket_jockey and pathdancer!)
Direct a film (my own film, not someone else's documentary project)
Direct a production of Godspell with a woman cast as Jesus
Engage in sacred/ritual/magical sex
Learn to ballroom dance
Publish a book, whether it's a novel or a work of non-fiction
Drive from Seattle to Los Angeles by myself, taking a week or so to complete the trip
Create a gallery in my entryway to display the highlights of my movie stills collection


These are all things I would like to do -- but then there are the day-to-day and/or urgent need-to-do's to take care of, not just the mundane stuff (job, house care, child time), and the biggest of my not-yet-fulfilled desires: the need to get my spiritual direction practice actually underway.

There is so much I could do to enhance my life. And I spend so much time on trivia -- not even the important householder tasks.

I need more energy, and a higher-level view of my own life. I think I've gotten trench-vision. All I can see is what is directly in front of me -- and what seems to be pressing in on me from the sidees. And that's no way to run my life.

Comments

[qos.livejournal.com]

What you observed a couple of weeks ago really is true: neither of us is content to settle for what we've already achieved. There is always more growing to do, new challenges to tackle, more fun to be had. (Can't forget that last one!)

[rocket-jockey.livejournal.com]

I'm all for seeing more of you whether swords are involved or not: when shall we make that happeen?

[qos.livejournal.com]

"When?" is always an excellent question.

Weekend after next?