Lovefest!

Via the inspirational iswari:

Reply here and I'll tell you something I adore/find endearing/is Teh Nifty about you.

Copy and paste this into your own journal if you're down with that.

I Have 3 Hours to Finish and Upload My Paper

If I was really smart, I'd crank it out in the next 90 minutes and actually enjoy the rest of my evening.

Falling On My Pen

The bloody paper was due at 7pm not 8pm.
The WebCT site no longer allows the assignment to be uploaded.
I have emailed it to my prof.

I've been saying for the past couple of months that this is a period of discernment, that I needed to complete this quarter of seminary and then spend the summer working on my shamanic studies and doing various kinds of internal checking and external research about what I really need to be doing, before I make a final decision about whether to commit to finishing this degree or not.

But the longer this quarter drags on, the more I feel like I should have taken the advice of the prof I spoke with during the break and simply have withdrawn then.

No, I shouldn't have, because then I might always have wondered if I had done the right thing.

But I am not enjoying this quarter the way I had hoped -- or the way I have enjoyed most of the rest of them. And the longer it drags on the more growly I get. I feel like a tiger in a cage, and it doesn't matter if I'm getting thick slabs of meat pushed through the bars every day. . . I'm blunting my teeth on the bars in my effort to get out and stalk my own food.

Which, come to think of it, is not so inaccurate a metaphor.

A Different Queen of Swords

I swiped this from ladyvivien -- who always has the coolest icons.

It pretty much reflects my mood these days.